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Sunday, 30 May 2010

You make me smile

Finally done with the busy week and I'm glad things are slowing down a little for me right now.
Done with Legal Studies test (which turned out pretty bad cause I misread a 16 marks question), Econs essay task, English report questionnaire and FINALLY DONE WITH MY PRESENTATION!! Yes, all in one week AND they're all graded. Thankfully I managed to find some time for cooking/trying out new recipes in the midst of the busy week. Photos up on facebook soon :) Looooooove that person who left me spoilt for choices by buying AND sending me the kikki.K book all the way from Singapore!
Need to pack my room so it'll be studyable (HAHA). New resolutions:
1. COMPLETE MY TUTORIALS
2. Keep my room clean and tidy
3. Don't leave everything (assignments, studying for a test etc) till the last minute
4. Treasure all my friendships
5. DIET PLANNNNNNNN!!
And with reference to point 4 of my new resolutions, WAIT FOR MY POSTCARDS FRIENDS!! Just ordered two boxes of them and hopefully it'd be mailed to me soon (probably a week or two). I'll write to you guys and we'll keep in touch! Pinky promise that I'll make time for y'all even when my pile of undone homework lying around on the floor gets thicker.
As for life, it has been great so far. Swimming every single week with my roommates before groceries shopping makes Saturday very tiring but it's worth it all! Sunday is the only day that I can just curl up in bed like a ball and sleep very VERY soundly. That's why I love Sundays and look forward to it every single week! So much so that it's like my motivation to study/complete my work. But of course, my greatest motivation is, you.
ONE more week before receiving my long-awaited letter, TWO more weeks before my sister and johnjohn come over, SIX more weeks before semester 1 exams (the timetable is not out yet..) and hopefully (fingers and toes crossed really tightly) SEVEN/EIGHT weeks till Singapore.
Till then ♥

Sunday, 23 May 2010

Friends

Feeling much better than the previous post and things are definitely looking up.
Completed the tutorials due for tomorrow and it is time to get started on the presentation on Friday (hope it'd all go well since it's graded)! Work has been somewhat good in the sense that I get my lectures and all. Well, except for Legal Studies which needs more reading but other than that, I'm doing great.
Frequent headaches for the past three days and I'm thinking it is cause of the sudden weather change? Not too sure actually. Have been forcing down panadols down my throat but they don't seem to work for me! Trying to get used to the pain and not go to any clinic since...... I don't even know where are the clinics over here -.- Oh, and the rain isn't helping!
Just a sudden thought of the day: I find myself so distant from my friends in Singapore that I wonder if we would actually meet up anymore if I go back next time. Someone just talked to me and the conversation just felt so weird. It was the first time that someone actually talked to me ever since I returned and that only lasted for less than 10 mins (?) to keep me updated on something. I can't explain the pain right now. And to be honest, I think there's a tinge of jealousy. I know I shouldn't feel this way but I really can't control myself. I miss him :( very very much. Besides him, I miss this whole lot of them. People that I took for granted, that I thought would be by my side forever are out of my life, slowly.
I wonder why am I blogging when no one reads my blog anyway HAH. Whatever, life still goes on and right now I'd learn to treasure people still in my life.
Goodnight ♥

Tuesday, 18 May 2010

Today
As hard as I want to get over with this day and just sleep it off, I can't.
Today went by just like a roller-coaster ride. It started off well, fine and sunny and it ended with pouring rain and myself being drenched right through to the inner layer. Funny how I relate my own feelings with the weather. But it was really true and accurate - for today at least.
Today..
- made me feel so lonely like I've never felt before. For the first time after 4 months, I felt as if I was on my own with no one by my side. But at the same time, that lonely time gave me time to think. Think through what I've been making someone go through for so long. Made me think if we were actually heading in the right direction.
- left me really scared while walking home alone - it must have been the longest walk, ever. Didn't want to follow Maggie and Karen for ice-cream so decided to head home alone. The shower started pouring which left the sky dark and gloomy (I hate such weather) On top of that, there were little puddles of water here and there making my shoes and jeans (up to the ankle) wet. The 5pm over here felt so much like 10pm back home.
- was such a bad day that I can't wait to end it (actually it's already over) by sleeping. But, I can't.
Hate life to the core suddenly. And no, I'm not emo-ing.

Monday, 17 May 2010

Expectations

I really really really hate school right now. Can't wait for Semester 1 exams and hopefully I'd have a short break to go back home! I feel the need to do well in Semester 1 exams. It's like this desire has transformed into an expectation. Wishing it wouldn't pressurize me further or whatever. Anyway, I can't wait for a break - break from school, from work, from chores, from everything. I just want to be alone. I need silence. I love silence, actually (at appropriate times).
Don't feel like blogging now. Goodnight.

Saturday, 08 May 2010

I'll Stand By You

Yet another week. Struggling to keep up with the neverending workload right now and clearly, I'm not succeeding. So many group works so little time!! I used to LOVE group works but now I really detest it cause some people obviously don't put in any effort at all. Like seriously. Stop complaining about your mid-semester grade cause it ain't going to help so stop being selfish and just freaking complete whatever we have to or all of our grades will go down with yours.

Other than projects and group works, math is killing me right now. Have not even completed any tutorial for the past week (going to do them later) and this sucks. Need my math to pull my GPA up!! More graded assignments are approaching and I'm definitely not enjoying the pressure. Going to get back the English Learning Journal next Tuesday and hopefully I'd do well overall (since I wrote crap for the last piece). That's like 5% of the overall, and yes that's a lot (I think).

Away from the sad stuff, I went swimming with Step and Jacqueline this morning! A great workout surely. Haven't been exercising at all for the past few months ever since I came here so well, it was REALLY tiring. Not complaining over here anyway :) Showered, lunched then the most-hated groceries shopping. Had to drag my trolley from Marouba up to the bus and back to the hostel and that left me aches all over.

The next happy thing? I WON AUD$4.50! Well it all happened when Karen, Martin and I followed Miller to TABsports and saw him betting over there. Being curious, Karen and I started pressing on this screen to look at what people could bet on/how and everything else. Then Miller started explaining like he's REALLY pro and since he was going to bet on this soccer match, I followed him! So he used his lucky money (money that he won from the earlier match) to buy for me and I won $4.50 yay. Now Karen, Bonnie, Maggie and Martin are saying I'd be some gambler soon -.-

Alright, down to work!! See you people ♥

Sunday, 02 May 2010

Still

First weekend over here and I'm already thinking of the next time I would be back to Singapore. That feeling sucks but I'm hanging on just fine. Counting down all over again (I really really hope my exams would end in three days so I can go back to Singapore for the remaining days - I don't mind 3 papers a day, I really don't.)!!

We've numerous projects ongoing right now and it definitely isn't a good thing. Just finished the background for the report and I don't even know the point we're bringing across. Hopefully the comments we get tomorrow wouldn't be THAT bad or whatever. And on top of projects, I've this whole pile of untouched homework. Okay maybe I did touch some but barely did. Math, Econs and Legal Studies! The killers which never fail to make my weekends so depressing. Need to do some by tonight and I will. On a brighter side, school only starts at 10pm tomorrow and I've a VERY long 2.5 hours break from 1230 - 4 :) Salmon fried rice (with eggs and cheese) with the usuals at the hostel. After that? Hello school once again. Pretty slack Monday I must say.

It'll be exactly one week since I've returned tomorrow but it feels like I've been here since forever and that I've not even gone back to Singapore at all. Country/Homesick = :(

I miss you.

Thursday, 29 April 2010

Happy Hour

3rd day over here and I'm still not used to the difference in times (No, I'm not kidding)!! Have been taking naps, waking up in the mrng with headaches and sleeping early in the mrng at 4am. Hate this habit cause I've not been doing anything productive at all. Will try to adjust during the weekend. One more day before Saturday! Thankfully the past few days have been pretty slack over at school (I guess tmr should be too). Adapting pretty alright with whatsapp, facebook, ebuddy and tetris during lectures!! :)
Aside from work and school, I'm in fact happy to see my friends and roommates after so long! Dinner with Step, Joni, Jacqueline, Ivan and Marco was good. 10 chicken drumsticks, 10 eggs and 2 different types of vegetables. Yummmmmmm! Went up to Ivan's apartment after dinner and started this major clean-up operation with Step. So proud of our work :) Felt so accomplished transforming that guy's room!!
SAJC has been doing well so far for Adiv, congrats guys!! Hang on there and bring glory to SAJC. So proud of you guys :) Last year's Adiv just flashed past. How my teammates cheered me on at my lowest point, how my shoulder went out of place in the middle of the game, how well my team worked towards the end screaming our hearts out etc etc. Miss bowling competition - for the company other than that, no thanks. (I hate to say this but I really wonder how life would be liked if I continued with SAJC, taking my very awesome combination HLEm)
Computing studies exam tmr (crossing my fingers that everything would be alright)!!!!!!!!!
You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like a bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh you make me smile ♥

Monday, 26 April 2010

One More Time

Just landed this morning and it felt pretty weird. It wasn't a negative actually. Cabbed back with Allen and spent quite some time alone waiting for my roommates to arrive. Day one in Sydney: Napped, saw them all, went Marouba for lunch then groceries shopping and dinner at Abang Sam!!
Nothing special or extraordinary that has to be mentioned. School starts tmr, hopefully everything would fall into place after so long and that I would complete my tutorials on time. Results sent to us last week and I'm pretty much happy over it. Grateful that everything went well for me! Thank you those arnd me for your support and care, loveeeeee!
It is 1111 right now and I feel SO TIRED. I want to sleep BUT my bed is not done and I've a million things lying on the floor/table. Hate unpacking!!!!!!!! Oh, and a quick summary of my two weeks in Singapore: I LOVED IT. Can't wait to be back again! Crossing my fingers that the next time would be July.
Till tmr ♥

Tuesday, 13 April 2010

This Is Home

Finally back to the place that I call home!!
Mid-semester went both ways - good and bad. Shan't think about it anymore and will accept whatever grade I get. Afterall, I did study! Shopping after that with a bunch of them followed by hostel to pack our things. Fire alarm went off cause of someone's cooking and we were all outside the hostel waiting to get back in to finish our last minute packing.. Airport the following day with Joni, Bonnie and Karen sending me off (thanks guys!!) and when I finally FINALLY touched down, my heart skipped a beat and it was racing towards OCC.
Day 1 in Singapore was spent at OCC with MQ to watch HY bowl. Surprise went somewhat well and was glad to see him all over again :) The very first thing he had to say to me? "You bluff me!!" SO ORIGINAL HUH (not I missed you so much.. with all the loveydovey words) haha. Definitely not complaining over here cause it was quite funny to hear that.
Day 2 - Afternoon spent with Bas then had family dinner (HQ's 21st birthday)! Company was good, caught up with the relatives and basically that's about it.
Day 3 - family once again for brunch at Paragon then shopping arnd City Hall/town followed by dinner with HY at Holland V and finally got to taste Haagen-Dazs once again!!!
Day 4 - Physio!!!! omg my back felt so good after, dinner with Jodie and KWK at Marina then Tim's concert with HY, Jodie, KWK and Hayati . Well done BFFFOREVER! So proud of you.
Day 5 - Holland V with my sister and on the way back.. a traffic light for the busy junction outside Sixth Ave was spoilt, a bus broke down right outside Holland V and the cashcard thing was not working!!
Well thats pretty much all. Still have this whole lot of activities ahead - can't wait can't wait!! :) Won't be updating much over here anymore (till I'm back in Aus) so check out FB for photos!!!!!!
♥

Monday, 05 April 2010

Reach Down Inside

Just one more day tomorrow before Mid-semester!! I'm not even done with my revision. Studying has been pretty unproductive (except yesterday) and I don't know why either. Going to do Econs for the whole day and Legal Studies and Math tomorrow. Hopefully I'll be able to complete everything. Everyone has been studying really hard and some are even on their second/third revision!!!! This is quite freaky actually since it's just Mid-semester. What if it's the real final thing? I dare not think.
I mean it is good to keep revising and so but I think they've been putting WAAAAAAY too much pressure on themselves (or maybe I'm just being some slacker). But whatever they say, I feel that if I study too much I'll probably go crazy and do worse for my exams.
Going to start sleeping early tonight (like before 12 hopefully). Need to adjust my body clock for THE big thing and to actually get used to the time change. Oh did I mention that I had 25 hours a day just a few days ago? For the 1st 3am, I was sleeping. And for the 2nd 3am that I could have relived, I was sleeping too :) Had one more extra hour of sleep and that felt really good!! Probably because of that my studying yesterday was VERY productive as compared to the rest of the days.
Just four more days, I will hang in there!!!!!!!!! :) The thought of being able to see him really soon works as a motivation for me to just keep going. His support and faith gives me confidence and strength to work towards my goal. His constant naggings are nothing but words of wisdom, love and care that warms my heart in this cold weather. His daily questioning on my meals and bedtimes also make sure that I'm in a healthy state and mind to endure all the late nights without falling sick :) Thankful for him, love him.
Pretty belated but Happy Good Friday and Happy Easter Monday everyone :) The only 'celebration' I had was to have pasta with my roommates other than that, I celebrated with my books/bed.
Will probably blog after all my papers and that'll be on Thursday.
♥